My heart is breaking tonight for my cousin Brandon and his 3 toddlers.  Brandon lost his wife, Melissa, today and his children their mother.  Those precious kids are never going to know what a strong, wonderful, vibrant woman their mother was and how much she loved them.

I also found out that a friend I've had since junior high passed today.  People are dying way too young right now.

I'm choosing not to take it a sign against having my surgery.  My biggest fear?  a blood clot, a stroke, an aneurysm as complication from surgery.  I'm going through with it this time.  I have my first appointment to get the ball rolling on July 5th.  I'm not backing down.

I'm having a seriously shitty day today.  I love it when my oh so loving husband is being a complete an utter ass first thing in the morning.  Nothing like having a fight to start the day off right.  Apparently I ruined his entire weekend and demanded that he go swimming with Zoe rather than do the dishes.  WTF?!?!  So now I guess we have a new arrangement for the laundry.  He is going to do his and I will be doing the rest.  I guess the same will go for dishes and anything else in the house that needs to be done.  If it isn't his he isn't touching it.  I'm so angry and hurt right now.  But then again I'm the horrible selfish person in the relationship and he does all the work so I have no right to complain when he tells me he will hand wash a shirt for me and 3 weeks goes by and it doesn't get done and I make the mistake of mentioning it.  Oh and how dare I suggest the bed gets made in the morning.  So much for trying to teach my daughter some basic housekeeping.  I just don't even know what to think right now.  Christ what I wouldn't give for 10 minutes privacy and a good blade.